I'm going through what seems to be the longest rough patch in my life in quite some time. The uncertainty is overwhelming me and when things start to turn a corner, another door shuts in my face, closing off yet another opportunity. Some of this has been by choice; I brought it on myself with the things that I chose for my life. Yet, no matter what my intervention has been through most of this, it seems as if I have absolutely no control over it anything. I've become a passive observer in my own life and it is frustrating. Maybe it is the universe telling me to cool off on my controlling nature. Too bad I don't really believe in the notion of fate, or else that would seem like a probable answer to this dilemma.
Despite my lack of power in areas of my life, I know there is something I can do. I can't just sit back and watch my life pass me by, growing apathetic about my ever-present trouble. I'll keep my chin up. I won't let anyone make me feel inferior, unconfident or unworthy. After all, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent, they simply can't. This means releasing all the worry bundled up inside me in twisted, excellently-tied knots and letting go, even if letting go is the least appealing idea right now.
As a finishing thought, here is my favorite line from the song, the one that runs through my head as I push on towards a better tomorrow:
"don't tell me not to fly, i've simply got to. if someone takes the spill, it's me and not you."
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