slam shut

Tonight, I closed a door in my life. It was a door that I've known I need to close for quite some time, but have continually put off doing so. It is a painful door and behind it, a piece of my heart will always lie. Memories are locked up along with it, gathered in a box to only be brought out when feeling momentarily sentimental. The wound from this door is fresh and will take awhile to heal, but it would have never if I hadn't closed to the door as I did tonight. Someone else could open it, if they choose, but from the other end and honestly, it would take them a lot of work even to pry it open slightly. On my end, the door is closed and I don't know how to feel about it at this very moment. It hurts, but it also feels of sweet relief and as if there is a breath of air returning to my flattened lungs and shattered heart. It was finally time to say goodbye and though it hurts right now, I'm glad in an odd sort of way. The door played an important part in my life that I will never forget and we will always be connected somehow, but it was time to move on. Doors in my life have been closing at a terrifying rate lately, mostly without anything done on my part, and the original thought of shutting another one scared the hell out of me, but I see that life can't go on without a little bit of opportunity lost. Another door will open someday.